| Tonight was awesome |
[23 Jun 2002|02:25am] |
I had soo much god damn fun today!!!!!!!!!!
I went to Jessi's at like noon...we were gonna lay out and what not...then Justin called me there and asked if I wanted to go out on his boat with him..he said I could bring jess too...so we decided we'd go. Justin came and picked us up at 1:30...and we went to the lake...it was super nice...first we just road around on the boat...it was me, jess, justin, josh(justins bro), kelsey(josh's girlfriend), max(justins bro), and mike(justins dad). Then Justin and Josh went wake boardin'....and Kelsey and Max went tubbing!! Then we went through the locks to get on the other lake....then me and Jessi went tubbin...I was soo damn scared! lol! Im such a wimp!!! At first me and Jessi went together...and we fell like three times...then she went by herself..and when she was done I went...lol Justin and Jess were makin' soo much fun of me!!! Cuz I guess I was bittin' my tounge...and makin' goofy faces!...After that we went to eat...It was fun! Me and Justin's dad get along really well. We sat next to eachother while we were eatin'...and we made fun of Justin the whole time!!! Haha it was fun...then on the way back to the boat I told him thanks for dinner..and he gave me a big hug and was like...ANY TIME!! It was really nice...Im glad im finally gettin to know justins parents alot better...then..on the way back to the dock...me and justin were sittin' in the front of the boat...I was kinda layin' on him...and on the other side of the front of the boat was Jessi and Max...Mike kept drivin' the boat over waves so we would all get wet...lol...Max was laighin' soo hard...and we were just crackin' up...cuz he was bein' such a goof!! Haha...It was really nice...hangin' out with Justin, Jessi, and Justins family all at the same time..I love them all soooo much!!!
Then once we finally got home....I took a shower and what not...we all got ready...and Me, Justin, Josh, and Kelsey went to see scooby doo! lol! It was awesome...me and Justin decided to smoke before we went...so the movie was just super crazy for me...lol!! And we ate TONS of food!!! YUMM!! But anyways...after the movie..we dropped kelsey and josh off at their houses...then Justin came over to my house...we just hung out for a while...then we decided to take a nice shower. We had sex for the first time tonight..it was amazin...actually havin' sex with someone who you love...it was soo nice...I remember..when me and pres had sex..it was just an everyday thing that we did..and it was no big deal...but tonight...Justin treated it like it was something special...and it was really nice...connecting with him in that way...makin' eye contact with him..and just...havin' him next to me...with our bodies touchin...I love that kid soo much its crazy!!!
Today was awesome....I had soo much fun!!! But Im super tired..so Im gonna go to bed!!
Nighty night!
--anna
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| **AnnaJ'sWeekend** |
[14 Apr 2002|12:47pm] |
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Hmm so this weekend has been a complete and total blast! I had soo much fun! Friday night I went out with Rachael and Katie. We went out to eat...then we went down town to state street and walked around and went in all the little shops and stuff. After that we drove around for a while...Katie wanted to go home to see her boyfriend, so after we dropped her off we went to some guys house who was having a BIG party! Me and Rach hung out by the bon-fire...then we went inside..and the guys smoked us up!! I got soo damn stoned! And the first hit I took the guys were like...HAHA HOLY SHIT..THIS GIRL KNOWS HOW TO SMOKE!! It was awesome! haha! and Then rachael was like..HAHA LOOK AT HER BLOW IT OUT HER NOSE! Everyone thought I was like this big STONER! and Im not....it was fun tho! So we hung out there...then we drove into waunakee to go get madelyne...Rachaels mom called her cell phone..and Rachael was soo stoned...we couldnt think of a story of what we were doing...so rach said we went to state street then to a movie..but we couldnt think of a story for the life of us!!! Thats how stoned we were! haha! So Her mom said me and madelyne couldnt spend the night..so me and madelyne went to madelynes...I spent the night there...and left around noon the next day! It was fun...Madelyne is a sweetie! I love her tons! We would have done something yesterday...but she had to go to GAY ASS GREENBAY...right mad! To see her grandpa or something along those lines...so I cihlled home all day!
At like 5:30 yesterday Justin came over and we went to my moms friends house where my mom was. We hung out there with all the lil kids...ate there..then went to Ashleys! Aww justin is soo cute with lil kids! haha! Its cute! Sooo then...at Ashleys we just hung out...I had to go home at 9...so I went home...waited til my mom went to bed...then left again...to go up to ashleys. When I got there...alota people were wasted! And it was too late for me to get drunk...so I just hung out...and chilled! Then me, justin, ash, natalie, and jess went in the hot tub and stayed in there for a while...then we went inside...and hung out..chilled...whatever! Then at like 1:15 I went home...Justin walked me half way! it was very sweet of him! He's such a cutie! HEHE! But he's kind of a moron when hes fucked up! haha oh well! I still *wuv* him! hehe!
Well I just woke up...its like 1...Im just gonna chill at home today...my sis has been home all weekend...and I havent really talked to her or anything cuz we've both been out and about! So I mgiht chill with her today!
But Im gonna head out!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~Banana~
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| ....better.... |
[09 Apr 2002|07:27pm] |
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well things seemed to be better then yesterday. I was much happier today...and lively...and awake! It was all good. I talked to Preston on the phone last night. It was cool...and he came by my locker and talked to me today...it was cool. We talked like we were friends...and everything was alright! I know we're gonna get back together eventually...but while we're not together I might as well try and make myself happy! Ya know? I wore my new outfit to school...it was hot! haha! And i had fun! The only bummer about the whole day was I found out that this sophmore named Jenny likes Justin alot...and I guess they used to like eachother...but then Justin started likin' me. It was kinda weird...cuz she like HATES me now! For real! haha! Oh well! People cant accept me and justin likin' eachother. Its weird...like all the sophmore girls gave me a really nasty look when me and him were talkin' in the lunch room! They were like...WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE DOING WITH HIM?!?! I just laughed...put my head up high...and walked on!!! Awesome huh?! lol! Ofcourse!
Anyway, its really nice out today! Warm and sunny! I love it! :) I wanna go outside and play! haha! Maybe I'll call justin to go do something! Who knows?!
Well Im gonna head out!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| ~{FINALbreakup}~ |
[09 Apr 2002|07:24pm] |
Me and Pres are over now....Its soo hard for me...we decided to just be friends. I dont know what to do..things are soo confusin'! I mean...Preston is my first love..I will always love him! Two nights ago I couldnt sleep at all...I was up all night...I think I finally fell asleep at 3...and I woke up at 6:30 cryin'. I cried like all yesterday before school....1st hour....2nd hour....lunch time...and after school. It sucks completely. I think he still loves me too...he told me he did that night..he told me everything was gonna be ok...but I know its not! I wish none of this happened with Justin...I love Pres soo much! I would give anything just to have one last chance with Pres...and to prove that I love him and I know I fucked up...but I bet Pres is sick of everything...I bet he doesnt want to give me another chance! Ahh things are soo screwed up! GOD I LOVE PRESTON SOOO MUCH! *tear*! I miss him already!
~Anna~
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| ~*~The.One~*~ |
[07 Apr 2002|12:33pm] |
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Last night I had some fun. April, Mike, and Justin came over. We started watching Shrek..but then decided just to fast forward it to the end because Mike said there was some gay guys dancin' or something! So like ya know at the end, when everyone is dancing?! Well there are two gay guys dancin'! Its soo hillarious! Haha...so then they wanted to watch Practical Magic, but its kinda scary...and I dont like scary movies...so we went the the video store and rented The One! A fricken Kung Fu movie! What the hell? I hate Kung Fu! lol! But the movie wasnt actually that bad and Mike wanted to get it...so we let him! I feel bad cuz Mike drives us three around every where durin' the weekends...I'm always like..."Here Mike...Here's some Gas Money!" and he never takes it! ARGH!! It drives me CrAzY!!! So thats why I let him rent the movie that he wanted to see. haha!
So yesterday I went shoppin' with my mom! I got a pair of pants, two shirts, and some stuff from bath and body works. It was fun..I love hangin' with my mom...she's pretty cool! :) Hehe! I was supposed to call Preston last night after I got home from shoppin' cuz we needed to "talk"! But when I called no one was home...hmmm?!?! I dunno what was up?! But I think me and Preston are driftin' further and further away from eachother this weekend. Its not cool! Preston was my first love...and you always love your first love...NO MATTER WHAT! So I dunno! I hope things work out...!
But Im gonna head out...I'll prolly write more lata!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| Ahh soo confused! |
[04 Apr 2002|08:47pm] |
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Well I know I havent written in a while..but Ive been kinda busy and hung up on alota shit! WEll I dunno if I wrote about what happened durin' SB! I started hanging out alot with justin (hes a year older then me...abd really hot if I say so myself!) and we kinda messed around and started likin' eachother! Me and Pres are still going out...but we're takin' a break! I know its kinda hoeish! But I told Preston...he was upset...but I guess he understood...kinda? So ive been soo confused lately...tryin' to choose between Preston and Justin! They both have soo many great qualities too them! And its soo hard to pick! For real! Ahh Im soo confused!
Well tongiht I was pissed...my mom woudlnt let me have preston over! URGH! Shes such a bitch! She wont let me do shit on school nights because im not gettin' all A's and B's! God damn! Im not that smart! She lets my fuckin' younger brother go out with his friends every damn night but she wont even let me have Preston over! What kinda shit is that? Im soo pissed! Cantcha tell? hehe!
Anyway..I stayed after school today with Rachael...to do our spanish thing that was really really late!! haha oh well...from when we skipped...like a month ago! OOPS! Haha! Shes such a sweetie!
But Alota people are online...so Im gonna go chat! You can chat too...my sn is sennahoj8!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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[29 Mar 2002|12:31pm] |
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Well hmm...I havent written in here for a while..since sunday or monday I think? Nothin' excitin' has been going on tho...spring break sucks this year!! Monday...I chilled at home babysittin' my bro...and then Pres came over for a while to chill...then I sat home all night after that. Tuesday I went up to Jessi's and I helped her give TOM(the cutest cat in the world!) a bath..and then we came to my house to chill...we watched America's sweethearts...then my sister took her home cuz we had to go to my brothers dads for dinner...I didnt get back til late...so I stayed home tuesday night too. BoRiNg!
WEll wednesday night Renee spent the night. Justin and mike came over for a while...then we went over to Justin's...hung out there for a while...then we went to Mike's and listened to him play the guitar. Then we went to the park...I dunno why? But it was soo cold...we hung out there...and watched Justin and Mike try to skateboard! lol it was hilarious. Then we just drove around...and eventually they dropped me and Renee off at my house. It was fun...altho we did absolutly nothing.
Yesterday Preston came over and chilled...we took my brother to the park and played baseball for a while..then we came back to my house and played basketball in my drive way! lol! Then me and Pres came inside and watch Entrapment...or whatever its called. Then he went home...and I hung out with my mom...ate pizza...and watched Pay It Forward <--thats a really really good movie too!
Today Im not sure what I'm doing...hopefully something excitin' cuz tomorrow Im going to see my baby twins ALL DAY! Im soo excited! I havent seen them FoReVeR! Hehe!
Well I gotta jet so I will write lata!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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[24 Mar 2002|05:25pm] |
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Last night I babysit for Faith again at Diana's! lol It was just me and madelyne for a little while...Mike M was supposed to come over but he never showed up...instead Mike B and Justin C came over...we were just chillin' for a while..then they went to get some alcohol for us...they got me and Madelyne wasted...then after a while the door bell rang and It was Ben M, Ben P, Craig D, Rob N, and Adam D. We just hung out and drank...some of them smoked...it was fun. I dont even remember what happened the rest of the night....all I know is that Preston called me at like 12:30 and I had no clue what he was saying...oh...and that I washed the dishes in the dark at like....2 or something! lol!
Well I think my baby is mad at me...seriously...But I dont really care. He's soo dumb! He hate it when I get messed up with other people...its gay..why cant I? Ya know?! But he'll get over it sooner or later! hehe!
But I feel like ass...I got like 3 hours of sleep last night...and Im really tired and hung over...so I'm gonna head out and go to bed for a while!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| **Totally**Random**Thoughts** |
[20 Mar 2002|05:01pm] |
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Hmm...I wonder after what happened with Mikes dad reading my diary...if he still reads this or not?
After school today I had my detention! I guess it wasnt that bad...but I didnt have any homework or anything..so I just sat there the whole time! I swear...all my teachers hate me! I am such a trouble maker compaired to my sis! Haha its not even funny! But oh well...shit happens.
Ugh...my tummy hurts! It sucks...I can never be completely healthy...there always something wrong with me! Ok..is it only me or do love handles really bug the shit outa people? I know mine arent even that bad..but if they get ANY bigger I'm gonna cry! I'm not supposed to be a big girl! I'm little...and I need to stay that way! 108 lbs is fine to me! But losing some wouldnt hurt either!...I wanna be really skinny..like no rolls when I sit down or ANYTHING! Man that would be awesome...that way I would actually look hot in a bikini! lol! haha! Jk!
Soo...I dunno about the whole "guy" situation! I really dont know who I like more! I mean..mike and Pres both are soo physically attractive..and both mean soo much to me! But last night was kinda weird? So mike was being kinda weird when I was talking to him online! So I was like..Mike whats wrong?! And hes like I dunno Im confused! AndI was like...confused about what? And he was like GIRLS...I want one but I dont? So does that mean he doesnt like me...but likes someone else? Or does that mean he likes me and someone else? I dunno? But I just want everything to work out...no matter what I do! but anyways...So last night I watched part of Glitter..the movie with mariah carey in it! Someone told me it was a bad movie! But I didnt think it was that bad...at all! I actually liked what I saw! Hehe! I'm gonna finish watching it tonight!!
Aww I felt soo bad today...cuz like b4 4th hour it was...Me, Nat, Chels, and Preston standing by my locker...and like The 3 minute bell rang(after the 10 minute one) so I was like..OK Im going to class! Pres was being a retard...like usual...and I just kinda was like BYE PRES...and walked away! He was like..WHAT NO KISS? And I kinda giggled and kept on walking. But like when I was like half way down the hall I looked back and he was watching me like WHAT THE HELL? I think I knida hurt his feelings or something because he walked right past me when I was going to my locker after school! haha...oops! He's a little baby! haha! Oh well!
WOW..today in spanish was really cool! We learned how to cut our fruit with forks and knifes! lol! It was hard! So I was like..I QUIT! And picked up my apple and started eatin' it normal! lol! I was like a major suck up too! haha..it was awesome! GO ANNA! haha! Burr its soo cold in my house! It really sucks! but Im gonna head out...and find something to do!!
Sarah(My sis) comes home on friday...shes gonna be here all break! God thats gonna suck...she gets really bitchy after a while...and its not cool! But she's gonna be working during the week days so maybe it wont be that bad....as long as we dont have to share my room and I dont have to see too much of her! I seriously cant stand her at home for a long time!! haha! Hmm friday's my day with Pres! If he doesnt ditch me again! That would suck!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| New screen names |
[17 Mar 2002|07:16pm] |
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1) KissMeTeddy1218 <--The teddy bear that Pres gave me says KISS ME on it! And his bday is 12/18!! Hehe!
2) Magic11928 <-- Dunno? Just thought it was cute!!
But Im out...cya around!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| Life is like... |
[16 Mar 2002|11:08pm] |
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Life is like a box of chocolate, it'll make you fat.
Life is like a bowl of cherries, I don't really like cherries.
Life is like a big old fart, it stinks.
Life is like a old carton of milk, it's rotten.
Life is like a puzzle, you're always missing a few peices.
Life is like a pair of socks, you're always missing one.
Life is like a game of monopoly, it takes to long to finish.
Life is like a secret code, you quit before you figure it out.
Life is like a calender, your days are numbered.
Life is like a cheap gel pen, you never know when it's gonna blow up.
Life is like a rotten tomato, I don't know why, it just is.
Life is like an Alegbra book, it doesn't make much sense.
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[16 Mar 2002|07:39pm] |
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you're sluttier than 77% of the world.
you're cleaner than 22% of the world.
DAMN I DONT THINK IM THAT SLUTY! haha!
FACT
66,599 women agreed with you, and chose "Josh Hartnett" as the best sex option of all time.
FACT
So far, the most popular place to lick lubricated men is below the right nipple.
THE NUMBER ONE THING THE AVERAGE WOMAN DISLIKES ABOUT HER OWN LOOKS
--her face--
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| ugh...new sn? |
[16 Mar 2002|01:14pm] |
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I need to get a new sn...so I dont have to talk to pres and the rest of the people I dont wanna talk to. I dunno what its gonna be tho. I'll put it in here when I get it though.
I feel high...although Im not! I feel the need to get stoned tonight..or maybe even drunk? I dunno?
~Anna~
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| Today... |
[16 Mar 2002|11:14am] |
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Well I'm still really upset about last night. Life has really sucked lately. But yea, Im trying to 4get about it! I dunno what I'm doing today, besides watching my brother...and I think Madelyne, might come over and chill. But who knows. Preston hasnt called yet! I'm trying to hold back from calling him. When Mad comes over she'll help me do that! Haha she's soo awesome! And she's a big help with all this shit thats been happening lately. But I better head out....blow dry my hair...and get ready for the day...even though Im not doing anything!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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| Tonight SUCKED! |
[15 Mar 2002|10:38pm] |
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ok well not only did preston fuck me over tonight.,...I fucked over mike! I gave him my FOD username...and he was lookin' at it last night! his dad must have gotten the name some how and his dad was reading the entry about me and mike smoking it up! I feel soo baD! Not only did the Preston think start me off crying...but the mike thing made it like 10000 times worse! This was the email I wrote to him....
mike...
Ahh man tonight has sucked completely!! But since your dad read my opendiary I didnt really wanna call ya...so I called up jessi, crying...and told her I was coming over! I couldnt even talk by the time I got here...I was crying soo hard..I couldnt speak!! She was freaking out and sat on the couch and held me(like bestfriends do!) until I was fine! I told her about Preston...but what really upset me was the fact that your dad read my diary! Now he must think soo low of me now. God mike...I bet I just totally fucked things up with us!! I cant believe it....god..I feel like I just lost someone I could talk to about anything! When I come over again...if I ever do...Im gonna feel like a complete loser! Im soo sorry mike! I really am...I cant believe I got you in even more trouble! I feel horrible! Serious! God mike I love you soo much! I love talking to you...and hanging out with you! What the hell am I gonna do now? I totally fucked everything up! I am sooo sorry! God...Im soo sorry! I bet I fucked up your life soo much this past year....having you move here...then we ended up not even being really close friends...then when we finally were...I fucked it up...again! I cant do anything right! Ahh man! I hate crying...But this is like the first time im crying over sometrhing worth crying over!!! I feel soo bad mike..Im so so so so very sorry!
I love you mike!!! Seriously! Email me back when you get a chance!!
lovin' ya tons,
Anna Johannes
Ofcourse tho...all those I love you in there are just because we're friends and he means soo to me!!!
But Im gonna go chill with Madelyne and Jess and the guys now! Cuz they love me and prestons gay!
~Anna~
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| My baby loves me! |
[15 Mar 2002|04:17pm] |
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Hmm for some reason I feel really loved today!! Like...Preston loves me...he was soo extrememly sweet today!!! Man he's soo awesome!!!! I dunno? But today was such a good day! He came to see me by my locker after every hour! It was awesome! hehe! And I did get alota kisses too! Yay!!!!! But hmm...
Love is about trust. Its about opening yourself up to a person and knowing that he'll respect the fact that you're baring your soul. It's about sharing. Being totally equal in a relationship and not losing a sense of who you are just to please the other person. I truly believe that old saying, that you have to love yourself before you can really love someone else. Because when you're in love, holding on to your sense of self can be difficult. But the more aware you are of who you are, the less likely you are to let someone hurt you. Here's one thing I know for sure. Crushes are not love. They're temporary, fleeting, and often totally unfounded. Do not mistake a crush for love. Unless you want your heart crushed.
Soo hopefully me and preston arent crushing eachother! I highly doubt it! Because we've been datin' on and off for 5 years! its sooo crazy!! Hehe! But I guess I better head out! Its friday and I dont have any plans yet...hehe!
Lovin' ya tons,
~Anna~
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[15 Mar 2002|04:14pm] |
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Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework..... and the incessant forwards..... and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!...... Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends..... And the "I miss you's", the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests.......And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot.......... I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry....... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart ............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.......... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crap......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances........ I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a thank you to all of my friends. . For always being there. And even if were not on good terms or we have lost touch... I still care for you.. ~Always and forever love all you guys!~
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